My Chambers

pink_succubus @ 2005-07-20T16:58:00

2005-07-20T22:38:50Z

[y][o][u]
[Name] Molly
[Sex]Female
[School] MSU Moorhead
[Sign] Libra
[State] Minnesota
[Exact Location] Moorhead Library, 1st floor

[c][u][r][r][e][n][t][l][y]
[Current Date] 20 july 2005
[Current Time] 5:00 PM
[Clothes] Brown peasant dress, cherry thong
[Weather] Warm . . . almost hot
[Hair Do] Partially pulled back on each side
[Footwear] black sandels
[Mood] Stressed and tired
[Talking To] No one
[Sounds] Other people typing and making people noises

[h][o][w] [m][a][n][y]
[Cups On Desk] None
[Pets] Just my cat
[Siblings] two brothers and a sister
[Cousins] Too many to come up with a number
[Aunts] 6 . . . maybe
[Uncles] Same number as aunts

[h][o][w] [m][a][n][y] [t][i][m][e][s] [p][e][r] [d][a][y] [d][o] [y][o][u]
[Change Clothes] two or three most days
[Brush Your Teeth] twice a day
[Brush Your Hair] once or twice a day
[Eat] two meals . . . maybe one or two snacks
[Say the Word "ok"] Depends
[Yell at Your Siblings] None
[Slam Doors] None

[h][a][b][i][t][s] [(do you)]
[Procrastinate] yesThat's what I'm doing right now
[Take Out Your Issues On Others] Yeah, but only those I'm close to
[Self Injure- (ex: cut, burn, pull hair)] Not anymore
[Have an Eating Disorder] No
[Tend to Judge People] Yes

[f][o][r] [a] [m][i][l][l][i][o][n] [b][u][c][k][s] ] [(would you)]
[Name Your Kid Dammit] No
[Strip For Your Classmates] No
[Shave Your head?] Yes
[Wax Off Your Eyebrows] Yes
[Wax An Old man's Back] Yes
[Sit In a Cage With 4 Hungry Wolves] No
[Eat A Snake] No
[Swim With The Jelly Fish] No
[Make Out With Your Teacher] Which one?
[Strip At a School Pep Assembly] No
[Stand up In Class And Flip Your Teacher The Bird] Maybe

[T][h][e] [A][v][e][r][a][g][e] [D][a][y]
Starts at ____ o' clock.: 6:20 AM
First thing I think when I wake up is: Damn it
The first thing I usually do is..: Take a shower
If I eat breakfast, it's usually..: Peanutbutter toast or granola in soymilk or vanilla yogurt
I get in the shower no later than..: 6:30 AM
I wash my ____ first.: Face
And I wash my ____ last.: Hair (conditioner)
I'm usually on the computer by..: 8:00 AM while at work
If I leave the house, I'm going to..: Work and class
I eat lunch by ____ o' clock.: I don't
For lunch, I usually eat//drink..: Sometimes I buy something at the campus store . . . like gardettos
It usually takes me ____ to get ready.: An hour
I usually spend _____ on the computer.: An hour or two

[A][s] [F][o][r] [T][o][d][a][y]
I woke up at..: 6:20 AM
have eaten..: Granola in vanilla yogurt, icecream
I have gone to..: Work, Shakespeare, Bible Lit, and the library
I've been on the computer for..: 2 hours . . . one of those hours was scanning a book for a professor
I have been to these websites --: opendiary, utopia, livejournal
I wish I was..: sleeping and done studying for my Bible Lit test tomorrow

[T][o][m][o][r][r][o][w]
I plan on waking up at..: 6:20 AM
Spend my day doing..: Going to work, class, taking a test in another class, going back to work, and going to another class
Talking to..: Whoever wants to talk to me
Listening to..: Dr Lit, Stabnow, and Hamrick lecture
Thinking of..: The paper I need to write this weekend
Laughing about..: Whatever amuses me
Getting angry about..: Shakespeare class and Dr Hamrick. The tragedy of Romeo and Juliet was no specific person or ideas fault dammit!!!

[I][f] [Y][o][u] [H][A][D] [T][o] [C][h][o][o][s][e]
Having the flu, or having a cold?: Cold
Piercings all over your face, or piercings `everywhere` else?: Face
Failing a class, or getting suspended?: Suspended
Having to sit in a tub of snakes, or having to eat a tub of snakes?: Sit
Eating a super-moldy peach, or drinking a glass of super-spoiled milk?: Peach . . .it's fuzzy anyway
Dying, or losing your memory?: Dying
Going schitzo or being a mass murderer?: Scitzo

[H][a][v][e] [Y][o][u] [E][v][e][r]
Been stood up?: No
Had your Wisdom Teeth removed?: No
Played an instrument, and sucked at it?: Guitar . . .I didn't give it enough time though
Seen a UFO?: No
Pulled an all-nighter?: Of course
Been drunk?: Yes
Been high?: No
Been giving a speeding ticket?: No
Eaten octopus or squid?: No
Been to a play?: Going to one tonight
Gone surfing?: No
Snowboarding?: No
Kissed someone of the same sex?: Not sexually
Kissed someone of the opposite sex?: Yes
Been in a real castle?: No
Had an eating disorder?: No
Been in a car accident?: 3 or 4 . . . I wasn't driving in any of them though

[H][o][w] [M][a][n][y]..
Piercings do you have?: 3 in each ear
Tattoos do you have?: None
Pets do you have?: You asked already
People live in your house?: Me and my parents . . . here it's just me and Meg
Rings you're wearing?: Two
People you have dated?: One
People you've actually loved?: As in romantic or friend love?

[W][h][a][t]['][s] [Y][o][u][r] [F][a][v][o][r][i][t][e]..
Color(s)?: black and pink together --- or ceruline
Cereal?: granola
Pajama's?: panties and a tanktop or t-shirt
State?: Minnesota
Movie?: The Princess Bride
TV show?: House, Nip/Tuck, American Idol, Family Guy
Disney movie?: Oliver and Company
Soda?: Pepsi in a can
Video//PC game?: Boulders Gate
Way to spend a Saturday?: Sleep in, go to a movie, maybe out to dinner . . . otherwise stay in a read
Class in school?: English Lit classes
Ice cream flavor?: Chubby Hubby Ben and Jerry's
Candy?: Nutrageous and peanutbutter M&Ms
Lollipop flavor?: Strawberry
Teacher?: Dr Lit or Mouch (Phil!)
Teacher you have a crush on right now?: We don't talk about my creepy fantasies

[W][h][a][t] [I][f]..
You could go on vacation anywhere. Where would you go?: Right no I want to be on a beach . .
You could change your eye color. What would you change it to?: Purple
You could meet any two celebrities. Who would you meet?: I dunno
You could kickass at any sport. Which one would you pick?: Football! even though I have no interest
You could date any teacher in your school. Who would you wanna date?: None

[A][b][o][u][t] [Y][o][u][r] [P][e][r][s][o][n][a][l][i][t][y]..
Shy or outgoing?: Very shy
Do you laugh a lot?: When around friends
How can someone tell your laugh isn't fake?: I dunno
Do you get annoyed easily?: Sometimes
Do you complain a lot?: Yes
Do you have a few close friends, or just friends?: Few close friends
Do you get jealous easily?: No
Do you cry a lot?: not lately
Do you cry during movies?: Yes
Do you raise your hand in class a lot?: Never!
Do you enjoy loud parties with a bunch of your friends?: Sometimes
Do you prefer double dates, or `alone` dates?: I never got to double date :(

[I][n] [T][h][e] [L][a][s][t] [W][e][e][k] [H][a][v][e] [Y][o][u]..
Eaten pizza?: Pita pizza
Eaten chinese food?: No
Made out?: Yes
Thrown up?: No
Gone hot tubbing?: No
shopping?: Yes . . . I bought a watch and "Othello"
a test or quiz?: Yes . . Sign Language yesterday
gone to the doctors?: No
gone to the dentist?: No
seen a movie?: Willy Wonka!!
which one?: See above
Got into a big fight with a friend?: No
Who?:
Got into a big fight with a close friend?: No

[R][a][n][d][o][m] [Q][u][e][s][t][i][o][n][s]..
Where were you on Halloween?: Vampire
What are you doing this weekend?: Writing a paper for Shakespeare
Are you in a fight with any of your friends right now?: No
What's your screen name?: DracoFlare
What's your favorite name for a girl?: Madison and Charlotte
For a boy?: Mier and Conner
Do you have your own computer?: yeah
Do you like to watch really scary movies?: Yes
When's the next birthday party you're going to?: Probably mine
Do you have braces?: No
What color do you want to dye your hair?: It's good brown . . .I'm done with dyes for now
Have you ever cried over a teacher before?: Yes! Mr Boucher, The angry spanish teacher, Professor Bennet when he snapped at me, a plethera of highschool teachers for overwhelming me with homework . . .
Are you gay?: no

pink_succubus @ 2005-07-19T15:49:00

2005-07-19T21:12:45Z

[] I am bisexual or homosexual.
[] I've run away from home.
[X] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[X if Greenday counts] I listen to political music.
[] I collect comic books.
[X] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[] I open up to others easily.
[] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[X] I watch the news.
[] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[] I own an iPod or MP3 player
[X About 30% of my clothes] I own something from Hot Topic
[] I love Disney Movies.
[X] I am a sucker for hair/eyes.
[X] I don't kill bugs.
[X] I curse randomly
[] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[] I am a sports fanatic.
[] I have one x in my screen name.
[] I have multiple x's in my screen name.
[X] I've slipped out an AIM word [lol, brb, etc.] in a real conversation.
[] I love Spam.
[X] I bake well.
[X] I would wear pajamas to school.
[] I own something from Abercrombie.
[X] I have a job.
[] I love Martha Stewart.
[] I am in love with love.
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[X] I am self-conscious.
[X] I like to laugh.
[] I smoke a pack a day.
[X] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[X] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[] I can't swallow pills.
[X] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[] I eat fast food weekly.
[X] I have many scars.
[X] I've been out of this country.
[X] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room
[X] I am really ticklish.
[X (saw a family one)] I see a therapist.
[] I love white chocolate.
[] I bite my nails.
[X most the time: I'm awesome] I am comfortable with being me.
[X not well though] I play video games.
[X] Gotten lost in my city.
[X] Saw a shooting star
[X] Been to any other countries besides the united states
[] I Had a serious Surgery
[X Last night: Hornbauchers] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[] Kissed a Stranger
[] Hugged a stranger
[] Been in a fist fight
[] Been arrested
[X] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[X When ever I can] Made out in an elevator
[] Swore at your parents
[X] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[I don't understand the question] Been close to love
[] Been to a casino
[] Been skydiving
[X a little one in my foot] Broken a bone
[] Skipped school
[X] Flashed someone
[X] Done the splits
[] Played spin the bottle
[] Gotten stitches
[] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[X All the time: I'm a biter] Bitten someone
[] Been to Niagara Falls
[X] Gotten the chicken pox

Survey from Meta

2005-05-21T05:44:02Z

1. Fallen for your neighbor?: Never had guy neighbors my age
2. Made out with just a friend?: No
3. Been rejected?: Yes
4. Been in love?: Yes
5. Used someone?: I try not to . . .
6. Been used?: I feel like it sometimes
7. Been Kissed?: Yes
8. Done something you regret?: Nothing major

Who was the last person...
9. That touched you sexually? Jeff
10. You talked to?: My mom, 5 min ago.
11. You hugged?: Tracy
12. You instant messaged?: Meta
13. You kissed?: Staccato (my cat)
14. You had sex with?: N/A
15. You yelled at?: Jeff
16. You laughed with?: My mom
17. Who broke your heart?: Nick
18. Who told you they loved you?: Jeff
19. You made out with?: Jeff

Do you...
20. Have any Birthmark?: 3 --- one on my back, one on my finger, and one on my side
21. Have any piercings?: 3 in each ear
22. Have a 6 pack?: Yeah, in hibernation
23. Own your own house?: No
24. Own a nice car?: No
25. Speak any languages?: English (duh!), Spanish, a tiny Japanese
26. Cook your own Dinner?: Yes
27. color your hair?: Sometimes --- it's been red and black
28. Have green eyes?: No

Have you / Do you / Are you....
29. Stolen anything?: No
30. Smoked?: No
31. Taken drugs?: No
32. Obsessive?: Usually
33. Compulsive?: Sometimes
34. Obsessive compulsive?: Sometimes I wonder . . .
35. Panic?: Sometimes
36. Anxiety?: Yes, all the time
37. Depressed?: Not much since highschool
38. Control Freak?: Jeff says I am
39. Obsessed with hate?: Eh?
40. Dream of mutilated bodies?: Sometimes

Questions
41. If you could be anywhere, where would you be?: Someplace warm and with a beach
42. Can you do anything freakish with your body?: My fingers are double jointed
43. What feature do you find most attractive on girls/guys?: Eyes, hair, hip bone
44. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?: Depends on what they stand for
45. Would you marry for money?: No
46. Have you had braces?: No
47. Do you wear lip gloss?: The sparkly stuff Nikki gave me
48. Do you sing in the shower?: Sometimes, when I'm alone in the house
49. When was the last time you had a hickey?: a month?
50. Could you live without a computer?: Yeah, I don't use it much. It would suck to go back to type writers though. I could deal
51. Do you use AOL, MSN, Yahoo ?: AIM and MSN
52. If so, how many people are on your list?: Like on line? 11 on AIM
53. If you could live in any past, where would it be?: During the Renaissance (it would be awesome and sucky all at once)
54. Do you wear white socks?: I prefer black
55. Do you wear shoes?: Yeah
56. What is your favorite fruit?: Strawberries and watermellon
57. Do you eat wheat bread or white?: White! I hate wheat
58. What is your favorite place to visit?: People's cabins
59. Fave DVD?: The Princess Bride
60. Do you kiss on the first date?: I haven't, but I probably would
61. Are you photogenic?: Yeah
62. Do you dream in color or black and white?: Color
63. What are you wearing right now?: Cow pajama bottoms and a white T
64. Do you eat a lot of fruit?: Yeah
65. Do you have any dimples?: No
66. Do you remember being born?: Np
67. Why do you take surveys?: Because I can
68. Do you drink alcohol?: Sometimes, not too often
69. Did you like high school?: Yes
70. What is the best accent?: ???
71. Who do you want to kiss?: Shhh
72. Do you like sunsets?: Yeah
73. Do you want to live to be 100?: Yeah
74. If not why?:
75. Do you or have you played with a ouija board?: Yes
76. Are you loyal?: I try to be
77. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs?: Yes
78. When you watch movies, do you like the lights on or off?: Off!!
79. Do you like your nose?: Yeah, it's pretty cute
80. Do you think you can draw well?: No, but I paint alright
81. At what age did you find out that Santa Clause wasn't real?: I don't think I ever thought he was real
82. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet?: like 8?
83. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday?: Yeah
84. Do you write poetry?: Not often
85. Snore?: I've been told I don't
86. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides??: My side
87. Do you like Cats/Dogs?: Both
88. Do you lick stamps: Not anymore. They have sticker backs these days
89. Do you use an electric can opener?: No
90. Have you ridden in a hot air balloon?: No, but I always wanted to when I was little

Random
91. Like your name?: Yeah, it grew on me
92. Were you named after anyone?: My middle name was my grandma's middle name
93. Do you wish on stars?: I used to
94. Which finger is your favorite?: Pinky
95. When did you last cry?: Yesterday morning
96. Do you like your handwriting?: It's crazy neat
97. Who do you admire: Random people at random times
98. What is the #1 priority in your life?: To be happy with myself and choices
99. What is your favorite meat?: Fake chicken --- vegetarian
100. Any bad habits?: Probably

pink_succubus @ 2005-05-20T10:11:00

2005-05-20T15:17:49Z

the X's are what i've done, now copy and paste it and put an x in every ( ) that you've done!
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
(X) been in love
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fight
( ) snuck out of my parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(X) had a crush on a teacher
( ) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a crush on one of your myspace/facebook/etc friends
(X) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) thrown up in a bar in mexico
(X) purposely set a part of myself on fire
( ) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
( ) met someone in person from myspace/facebook/etc
(X) been moshing at a concert
( ) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
( ) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake id
(X) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
(X) touched a snake
( ) smoked a cigarette
( ) smoked a cigar
(X) slept beneath the stars
(X) been tickled
( ) been robbed
(X) been misunderstood
(X) pet a reindeer/goat
(X) won a contest
(X) run a red light
( ) been suspended from school
(x) been in a car accident
( ) had braces
(x) felt like an outcast
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu --- once or twice
(x) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
( ) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country
(x ) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
( ) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
( ) sung karaoke
( ) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(X) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) danced in the rain
( ) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
( ) crashed a party
(x) gone rollerskating
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
(x) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed penis in class
(x) ate dog/cat food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) kissed a mirror
(x) sang in the shower
(x) have a little black dress
(x) had a dream that you married someone
( ) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(x) been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
(x) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
(x) didn’t take a shower for a week
(x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believe in ghosts
( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
(x) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
( ) gone streaking
( ) played ding-dong-ditch
( ) played chicken
( ) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(x) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
(x) caught a fish then ate it
( ) made porn
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
( ) made out with a member of the same sex
(x) cheated on a test
( ) have a Brittany Spears CD
(x) forgotten someone’s name
(x) slept naked
(x) French braided someone’s hair
( ) gone skinny dipping in a pool
( ) been kicked out of your house

Our Foreign Country

2005-01-04T17:22:57Z

It's Tuesday. I have no plans for the day, and probably will curl up in my bed and read Vonnegut all day. I went to Half Price Books yesterday and bought The Hobbit, The Fellowship of the Ring, War and Peace, and The Joke by Kundera. I had a copy of The Hobbit before, but I lent it to my brother a year ago, and he never gave it back to me. I own the three-in-one copy of Lord of the Rings, and have read them all, but I want to re-read them, and The Fellowship is the only individual copy I'm missing. I don't think I ever read The Hobbit, but my dad may have read it to me when I was a wee one. I remember him reading all of the Narnia books to me, and A Wrinkle in Time, and many other books. My mom always read me Beverly Cleary or Judy Bloome books . . . that type of thing, up until 5th grade.

Anyway, I doubt anyone cares about that.

Maybe I should make it my goal for the year to read War and Peace . . .

I went to breakfast at 8:30, with Meta and our mothers. Meta told me, once again, that people think I deserve/could do better than Jeff. Too many people tell me that, and it frustrates me. People tell him that I'm too good for him, and people tell me that I can do better.

What is better? I keep asking myself that. Jeff loves me, he's good to me, he's loyal and I trust him copmpletely. He does say things without thinking, but his heart is good. He almost never says anything to hurt me. Sometimes I wish he had more motivation. I wish he would get his license, get a job, a car, and get better grades. I wish his spending habits weren't so frivolous, I wish he would stop saying "Fuck" and "Bitch" and "Ass" all the time. I sometimes wish he would think before he speaks, even though a lot of times the crude things he says are lingering in the back of my mind as well.

I love him.

I had a professor that told me how romantic relationships are like foreign countries. They have their own rules, their own language, and everything. No two relationships are ever alike, and no outsider can ever truly understand the culture of that relationship.

The same professor also said there is always a winner and a loser in a romantic relationship. One of the two is always in control, and they struggle to see who will win. The one who is in control is that one who can end the relationship and devastate the other one more, the one who is less in love. He went on and on . . . and love suddenly seemed less romantic.

Kundera, the writer I mentioned earlier is a follower of these two ideas. That's what makes his books interesting.

Anyway, nobody understands the foreign country of Jeff and my relationship. They observe, but they don't understand. In private we're different than in public, and in pubic we're different than we seem to be. To outsiders it appears a certain way, because of the way they observe us acting, but it's actually not that way at all. Things run deeper than the surface of our behavior, and they don't see that. They don't have a background travel guide on the past four years of our country.

That's why it bothers me when people try to say that I can do better.

<3 Molly

Party

2004-12-30T23:36:47Z

Not much has been going on in my life since I got home from Chicago. I'm having a New Years party tomorrow. I think about 7 or 8 people are coming. I invited Meta, Laura, Tracy, Jeff, Mike, Rudolph, Kim, and Nikki. I baked a cheese cake just a little bit ago. I hope it tastes okay. It's the second cheese cake, from scratch, I ever made.

Molly called me this morning to invite me to a New Years party. She's living in an apartment with Lindsey and Jason. She said they all want to see Jeff and me. Since I can't go to their party, we agreed to hang out next Thursday, and she gave me directions to their new place. I'm excited . . . I haven't seen any of them for awhile.

So yeah. For Christams my parents gave me a knife (now I can cut cheese without stealing Kim's knives), pencils (the good mechanical kind), two pairs of knee socks, and my mom took me shopping and bought me two new pairs of jeans and a cute jean skirt. My nephew, Jordan, was my secret santa, and he gave me a beanie baby dog, a book on card tricks, a necklace, and earrings. Jeff gave me a huge stuffed moose.

I've been reading Fast Food Nation. It's pretty interesting. Before I went on break I checked out about six books from the library at school. I think I was being over optimistic about what I would have time to read in two/three weeks.

Jeff is sick and I miss him. He was supposed to hang out with me yesterday and go shopping for the party with me. Then we were going to go to a movie. He was too sick though, so I went with my mom to Rainbow and Cub. I invited him over today too . . .to help me decorate and clean, but he's still too sick. I hope he's better by tomorrow.

<3 Molly

pink_succubus @ 2004-12-29T15:58:00

2004-12-29T22:12:49Z

1. Copy and Paste

2. BOLD anything true

3. Leave plain anything untrue.

4. Add a new one on the end

001. I miss somebody right now.
002. I watch more tv than I used to.
003. I love olives.
004. I love sleeping.
005. I own lots of books.
006. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. I love to play video games.
008. I've watched porn movies.
010. I have been in a threesome.
011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
012. I believe honesty is the best policy.
013. I have acne free skin.
014. I like and respect Al Sharpton.
015. I curse frequently.
016. I 've changed a lot mentally over the last year.
017. I have a hobby.
018. I've been told I have a nice butt.
019. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
020. I'm really, really smart.
021. I've never broken anyone else's bones.
022. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
023. I love rain.
024. I'm paranoid at times.
025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
026. I need money right now.
027. I love sushi.
028. I talk really, really fast sometimes.
029. I have fresh breath in the morning.
030. I have semi-long hair.
032. I have at least one brother and/or sister.
033. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
034. I shave my legs.
035. I have a twin.
037. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
038. I like the way that I look.
039. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
041. I am usually pessimistic.
042. I have mood swings.
043. I think prostitution should be legalized.
044. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
045. I have cheated on a significant other.
046. I have a hidden talent.
047. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
048. I think that I'm popular.
049. I am currently single.
050. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
051. I enjoy talking on the phone.
052. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
053. I love to shop.
054. I would rather shop than eat.
055. I would classify myself as ghetto.
056. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
057. I'm obsessed with my blog!
058. I don't hate anyone.
059. I'm a pretty good dancer.
060. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
061. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. I have a cell phone.
063. I watch MuchMusic on a daily basis.
065. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
067. I have never been in a real relationship before.
068. I've rejected someone before.
069. I currently have a crush on someone.
070. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
071. I want to have children in the future.
072. I have changed a diaper before.
073. I've had the cops called on me before.
074. I bite my nails.
075. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
076. I'm not allergic to anything deadly.
077. I have a lot to learn.
078. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
079. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
080. I am very shy around the opposite sex.
081. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
082. I have at least 5 away messages saved.
083. I have tried alcohol before.
084. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
085. I own the "SOUTH PARK" movie.
087. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
088. I enjoy country music.
089. I love my best friend(s)
090. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
091. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
092. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
093. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
094. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
095. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
096. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
097. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
098. I have dated a (ex)close friend's ex.
099. I'm happy as of this moment.
100. I have gone scuba diving.
101. Had a crush on someone youve never met.
102. I've kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
103. I play a musical instrument.
104. I strongly dislike math.
105. I'm procrastinating on something right now.
106. I own and use a library card.
107. I fall in "lust" more than in "love."
108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest things ever.
110. I'm obsessed with the tv show "Lost."
111. I am resentful that I have to grow up.
112. I am an entirely different person around different people.
113. I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often.
114. I think ramen is the best kind of food in the whole world.
115. I am suffering of a broken heart.
116. I am a nerd.
117. No matter where I am or who I'm with, I always seem to be lonely.
118. I am left handed and proud of it.
119. I don't change who I am for someone else.
120. My heart resides below my feet.
121. I am a Senior in High School.
122. I enjoy smoothies.
123. I have gastritis.
124. I have nothing better to do with my time.
125. I am listening to Radiohead right now.
126. Most people call me by my middle name.
127. I once stole a music stand.
128. Pi confuses me.
129. I love NASCAR!
130. I own over 200 CDs.
131. I work 7 days a week.
132. I have mono
132. I dont have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.
133. People tell me I have a horrible sense of humour.
134. I'm only wearing underwear.
135. I had more than one Thanksgiving dinner this year.
136. I've driven to a different state to see a band I liked.
137. I am the most overanalytical person I know.
138. I believe in wasting time.
139. I don't listen to much music.
140. I have a shoe fetish.
141. My favorite holiday isn't Christmas.
142. I prefer weeks off of work instead of days here and there.
143. I love sex.
144. I wanna go home
145. I don’t know what I would do without my friends.
146. Christmas threw up in my dorm room and I love it.
147. Friends is(one of) my favorite TV show.
148. I'm hungry
149. I'm still angry about the Nip/Tuck season 2 finale cliffhanger.
150. I'm a Potterhead and proud of it!
151. I noticed there are several numbers missing from this list, making this very much not the 151st entry.
152. I lied about one of the items on this list.
153. My siblings are my best friends.
154. I believe cheese should be its own food group it is soooo good!
155. I have a problem expressing things.
156. I have lost a parent.
157. I am the most depraved person I know on the face of the planet.
158. I have atleast one test tomorrow that I am not prepared for yet.
159. I love Slim Jims! even if they are really bad for you.
160. I am sick and tired of school so I am not going.
161. I love sundance
162. I do not watch television.
163. I love Starbucks coffee drinks.
164. I am living at least one lie right now.
165. I love wearing skirts, even if its winter.
166. I'm a techie.
167. I am writing this far, far too late/early.
168. I'm a little crazy... It's the only thing keeping me sane. ^_^
169. I like the smell of white tic tacs

<3 Molly

Random Survey

2004-12-26T02:34:43Z

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Molly
2. Mollibeth
3. Biscuits

THREE ...SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Wildfeirer
2. DracoFlare
3. Satanic Ballerina

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I'm smart and motivated
2. I know my morals and have strong opinions
3. I'm unique

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I get hung up on little, random things
2. I can be too self righteous
3. I'm very indecisive

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. German
2. Bohemian
3. Norweigen

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Losing a loved one (especially unexpectedly)
2. My future (making decisions like what to major in)
3. Spiders and centipedes

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Books
2. Friends
3. A sense of accomplishment

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Silk Pajama Bottoms
2. Jeff's Led Zeplin shirt
3. Black panties

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists at the moment):
1. Nirvana
2. Counting Crows
3. Garbage

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT (not in any particular order):
1. Punk Rock 101 --- Bowling for Soup
2. Tiny Dancer --- Elton John
3. Heart Shaped Box --- Nirvana

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Staying in Moorhead and taking summer classes
2. Find a major and something I can apply it to
3. Learning how to play guitar

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. Mutual respect, trust, and loyalty
2. Someone who shows me new things, takes me interesting places, and helps me feel a child-like wonder for the world
3. Someone who cares about me unconditionally

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE: (SEE IF YOU CAN FIND THE LIE!)
1. My favorite scent is white Tic Tacs
2. I hate green peppers, but don't mind the red ones
3. I used to have black hair

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Eyes (depth)
2. Body shape (I like scrawny boys)
3. Hair (Dark and shaggy)

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Eat meat
2. Make decisions quickly
3. Say no to a friend in need

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Reading
2. Piano (but I haven't played much for awhile)
3. Spending time with friends (pool, video games, ccgs, anime, movies, rpgs)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Make some hot chocolate and curl up with a book
2. Travel somewhere . . . anywhere
3. Go to something cultural (a play, concert, poetry reading . . .)

THREE ...CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Editor (novels, newspaper, a magazine)
2. English teacher (high school level), or a college professor
3. Psychologist

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Spain
2. Japan
3. Europe

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO SOMETIME IN THE FUTURE:
1. Obtain a GPA of 3.5 or higher
2. Go on EuroSpring
3. Go to Grad school

<3 Molly

EuroSpring

2004-12-14T14:12:53Z

I tried to post last night, but either OD or my computer wouldn't allow me to. It frustrated me.

I have a Spanish final today at noon. I'm not too nervous about it . . . well maybe a little, but I have from 9-12 to study in Maclean if I need to. I don't think I will need that long.

I have so much to do today. I need to take my final, pack for Chicago, make Japanese study sheets and study, and read 30 pages in my Personality Psych book and study. I have two finals tomorrow, and after my last one I leave for Minneapolis.

I think Anya is staying at my place. I won't get home until 10 or 11 PM. I'm hoping the two of us can hook up with Meta, because she is coming home about the same time I am. I wonder how those two will get along.

I'm almost positive I'm going on EuroSpring next spring. It's going to be awesome. I can't wait! If I like Oxford, I might go back for a semester or two of my senior year. I need a 3.5 GPA for Oxford though . . . right now I only have a 3.39. I need to work on that.

So I'm going to stay up here all summer taking classes, and working my little butt off. I need to save up! It's going to be a stress-filled summer. My parents told me they will either me take my car up here, or they will find me a new used car if mine is in too bad of shape. I hope they were sincere on that.

I need to go to breakfast. I'm meeting people at 8:15.

<3 Molly

Saucy

2004-12-10T07:38:13Z

Wow. Tonight Andy, Mike, and Rudolph went out drinking. They called my phone to tell Anya to pick them up, and Andy kept calling me saucy: "Molly, I just want you to know you're saucy. Don't tell Jeff I said that you're saucy. Let's count down from three and say Molly's saucy."

What the hell? Jeff said this morning at lunch he called me a sexy bitch too.

Anyway, Anya and Kim went to go get them and bring them back to the suite. Mike admitted on the phone that he's drunk enough for me to play dress up with him. Hehehe.

Not much else new. Kim's been being confusing. She won't let me do nice things for her, and she's upset that everybody wants to take her out for her birthday on Saturday. It's a little bit frustrating . . . I like her, and I try to do nice things for her, like I used the tickets I won at Space Aliens to buy her an alien lanyerd because there wasn't anything I wanted to buy with the tickets, and she wanted the lanyerd, but she got upset that I got it for her and keeps trying to give it back to me, but I have no use for it because I have a MSU lanyerd already and I bought it specifically for her. I feel rejected. I know it's nothing personal, she just doesn't like accepting anything from anybody, but it bothers me. In my group of friends here we treat eachother like family and try to take care of eachother . . . she won't let anyone take care of her, like family. I'm sure a lot of it springs from her past, from what she's told me late at night before we fall asleep.

Also, Nikki, Jeff, and I built a ginormous snowman. It was at least 7 ft tall and took over two hours to make. Someone knocked it over :( I got pictures though! I set one as the background on my cell phone.

<3 Molly

Snow

2004-11-27T16:44:30Z

It's snowing in Minneapolis! It's soo pretty. Yay! I hope the driving conditions are okay for tomorrow though.

I went shopping yesterday. I spent over $200.

I'm bringing my guitar up to Moorhead with me. Maybe Anya will give Jeff and I lessons.

I'm also bringing all my Magic cards up with me. And I mean, all of my Magic cards. Hehe

<3 Molly

Fortune Cookie

2004-11-25T06:56:11Z

So, Rudolph, Jeff, and I stopped for Chinese food in Alexandria on the way home for Thanksgiving break. My fortune cookie read, "A man's best possession is a sympathetic wife." What the crap is that!? The two guys laughed at me, and I have to admit . . . the cookie was so politically incorrect that it was a little funny.

It's okay though, because Rudolph's told him that he is going to settle down in a mediocre life.

Anyway, I made it home and am content with life. I talked to my dad for a couple hours this morning, gave my cat a bath, and spent the rest of the day at my sister's house playing Bouder's Gate 2.

<3 Molly

The Basics

2004-11-20T21:49:11Z

Lets see. I don't really know why I started this, because I've been writing on Opendiary.com since my sophmore year in highschool. I guess I was just bored last night, sometime around midnight.

Some info about me:

My name is Molly and I recently turned 20 years old. I'm a sophmore at Minnesota State University Moorhead. I have no idea what I want to do with my life. Right now I think I might Major in English (emphasis literature), get a BA of Languages (Japanese and Spanish), and minor in Psychology. I was born and raised in Minneapolis. In my free time I love to read, watch crap TV, spend time with friends, and do nerd things (Magic, anime, rpg). I've been really busy with homework lately though, because I'm somewhat of a perfectionist, and have been trying to put school before everything else

My Important People:

My Family: I'm the youngest. I have two brothers (Mark and Matt) and a sister (Meri). My mom and dad live in Minneapolis with my cat (Staccato). I also have three nieces (Kelsey, Elizabeth, and Holly) and a nephew (Jordan)

Jeff: My boyfriend since I was 16. We decided to go to college together, and unless something happens, we plan to get married after we finish college. I love him a lot. Even though our personalities are so differnt, we some how are able to understand eachother, and fit together perfectly.

Meta: My best friend from back home. We've been friends since the first grade. I love her and miss her a lot. She's going to school in Indiana, and she wants to be an archeologist.

Tracy: Another close friend from back home. We've also been friends since first grade. I miss her too. She's going to school to be a nurse or maybe a doctor.

Kim and Leah: My two suite mates. Kim and I hang out quite a bit and are getting to be good friends, especially since we started to live together. Leah is good to talk to when you have a problem.

Mike and Rudolph: Two friends I've made since I started going here. They're awesome! I love to hang out with them, because they're so weird and they can always make me laugh. They also take good care of me and always look out for me.

Anya: My "daughter". She's another friend that I've made since I came up here. She hangs out with me sometimes, but I never really got the chance to get to know her real well because she has a very large quantity of friends. She's a very caring person, and tries to make everybody happy. I do enjoy the time I do get to spend with her. She's fun to be around.

Nikki: Nikki is Kim's friend who I just met this year. She's fun to be around . . . she says and does the most random things. I've been getting to know her better as the year goes on.

There are other special people in my life, but right now those are the ones that have been having the greatest influence on my life . . .

<3 Molly